My Oblivious Crush

There is a guy that I think is a really great guy. He has no clue that I think he is so wonderful. Not sure why that is but I guess he is living under a rock or something. We talk to each other. Yet, it seems awkward and weird. Kind of like when you are in your first stages of dating someone and you are not sure what to do or say next. Maybe he does see that attraction there and therefore there is tension. Let's hope because if he is really that oblivious....I have got to wonder.

I found out today that my oblivious crush has his profile online at one of those dating sites. I find that kind of funny because he seems like the type that would be great at finding dates. Although as I have said before he is a little eccentric so maybe he is scaring off those around him that would want him. I know that I like him but I don't know who else does. There has to be someone else that does. In fact, I am sure that we know someone that does. Although if we do I surely don't want to know about. Yet again, maybe I do so I can see who I have for competition.

At the same time I was also happy upon finding this out because this means he is still single. Which is always a good thing for the one you have a crush on who has no idea whatsoever. I know that I am not obvious but what can one expect. I can't just throw myself down and say, "hey open your eyes you idiot." I guess I could but then where is the fun in that? Its hard not taking what I want. I have always been a little agressive due to passion in me. I know I have no chance in h*** anyway because he doesn't find me at all attractive (or at least he doesn't act like it) but something tells me that I intrigue him and maybe that is enough to start with. I guess though that depends on how shallow he is. Which going based on his previous conquests....maybe he is shallow. Although something tells me not to think that. He seems to have a sweet heart which would not indicate a high level of shallowness.

I wish I had a little manual that would tell me what to do. Guys are so unpredictable at times. I know they say women are, but men are just as much off as women. They just behave in a way so that it makes them seem normal so it's not so noticeable. Guys are easy though to read and figure out. Just determining where they are going to land and when- is a little more difficult.

You know, I realized today that when I look into his deep blue eyes....it makes me melt. I catch myself doing the dumbest things...but I can't help it. I am at a loss for words sometimes. Which makes for some awkward conversation. He's pretty hot. I guess I better get with it. I have things I could show him I think that would blow his mind though. Guess I know what my resolution is....even if it is shallow....that's all for now.

Don't be a lemming!